Yang kulakukan selama ini, hanya kabur 

 u know it? the feeling down to ur spine, the chill when u see all those great story,character etc when u hear the op it just making me wanted to write creating my fc*kng world,  i know i can write a better story, a hyped story ,character as hyped as their something thats have been in my head for a long time, too long but do i have guts or even time? no i do have time. but do i have speed to finish it on time? as fast as my mind thinking about it. Fck*ng Writer./..  just write it u morons nobody cares tough, lmao i have read once, its saying "when u read a novel and u think & know u can do better/write a greater story than u have to write one" or when u think what u read/see/hear is not good enough for u? u have to create ur own...  i know i have disorder think.. wtf fck it just write those too much lie?  WRITER 

Mencari cara mendengarkan dan bertindak mencoba menghidupkan kembali ku harus karena itu musti ada

Tired of this sh*t u know the solution, break it. break the cycle. dont keep moving around like an idiot. dont just follow it, make ur own flow.

F*k it. i am not good on that atm. iam just write whatever the word come out of my mind. that's it

funny? idk. just imagine helping friend with a suicidal thought when i still screwed up, its like trying to help solve a problem that actually my problem too. ah, i know. my word is screwed up..... iam trying to help friend to dont give up, to keep believing in his self that he can do it, that he can get trough all of this when myself struggle with my the same problem? well, its not really the same. but the core of it just a same way. the solution is the same, in a big line.